saya jadi cikgu..haaa?aper?

I'm counting the days to begin the new chapter of my life as a lecturer...an English lecturer for International Islamic College:p

The future looks kind of vague right now simply because I don't know how and what to expect from lecturing. I used to think that teaching is something that I had in my blood since abah was a teacher for like 40 years and I used to do some small time teaching in his private institution back home but now as the days come close I found that I'm actually having a spiral chill down my belly... so many questions linger and the damnest part about it is that I can only acquire the answer on 7th of JUly 2008 which is also the day I will start teaching.

can I teach??? darn@%

It's kind of sad knowing that I will leave Restu Foundation and all the guys here soon. These guys are so cool and I'm having such a blast time working with these people now so to leave is like to earn myself a slap on the face or something. I'm trying to get Ikram's approval for me to work here as a part timer so I can continue giving all that I can for the centre. maybe this sound too silly but I think I had fall in love with Restu at hello..hohohoho..sounds familiar jek. hehehe..baru nak jadi seorang writer yang hebat dah kene tukar jadi lecturer. speaking about writing, looks like I will not be able to write my first two books at all..sedeyyyyynya.

I pray hard that the vagueness will only stay with me until 7th of July. somehow I can sense something from somewhere that's telling me, soon after, life will get better for me. I believe I made the right choice and that what I will do after this reflects the person I truly am. I am now fulfilling part of my destiny as an educator. no matter what happens in the future, I know I will do my best and give everything I have and dengan harapan bole jadi mcm abah..

I can do this:)