dear God...

I'm literally addicted to avenge savenfold's dear god now.keep playing the song for hundreds of times now.

I don't exactly know how to say this but lately my hormones are starting to kick in and I think they are planning for a bigger demonstration in this couple of days to come.

lately ni aku slalu rase aku bodoh sangat. aku start soal pasal diri sendiri and pasal beberapa decision yang aku dah buat. tiap kali perasaan tu datang mesti aku tanye "zarie, how far can you actually go before you even realize that it was a stupid thing for you to do?"

the thing is...aku tak berapa tau ape sebenanye yang aku dah buat? damn it!

aku bukan jenis orang yang nak mempersoalkan diri sendiri sb walau bodoh macamanapon mende yang aku buat aku tau tu sume part of growing up or at least part of knowing my own inner self so selalunye aku takla kesah sangat but since ni sume jadik tanpa aku tau sebab die, aku rase menyampah plak.

it's like aku ni macam dah salah amek jalan pon ade gak.

looking at people around me I do realize that they have their own problems but I wonder is there a slightest chance that they might have the same problem like me? cuz if they do aku nak gak tanye kenape ek?

maybe i'm just getting restless la about my life.

there is this one thing i did yang aku rase aku buat baru-baru ni. honest to GOd aku betol2 rase mmg bodoh tahap ikan cencaru punye tp aku pikir sb mende dah jadik nak buat camne kan?go on jekla with my life. tapi come to think about it again maybe gak mende tu yang buat aku kaco thus mengembangkan lagi masalah bodo aku skarang ni.haiiiiihhh.

P/s; ari tu aku berangan nak buat movie versi romeo n juliet kampung. tp nak kekalkan the whole storyline cume setting die jek kat kampung...or maybe between kampung or estet.

sape nak suh aku direct movie ek??? kak ain....do you know anybody yang willing????

cehhh...bodo lagi.