To all my friends...
Selamat menyambut kedatangan syawal pada kali ini.
raya tahun ni maybe agak bercampur baur perasaan dia. this will be the first raya for me as somebody yang dah bekerja and live in perantauan. so, I guess the spirit of balik kampung should be a little bit different than during the days i spent as student of IIUM dulu. I can't wait to pay my own first zakat fitrah (yeaa saya tak bayar lagi ketika post ini di tulis), my first time giving duit raya to my little sister and my 4 lovely nieces and nephew and probably will be my first time buy kuih raya for family.yeppp, it is true that previously my role was only to eat and to finish the simpanan kuih raya rumah but now I guess I am not the king anymore and thus have to give the share of those kuih raya to maybe my sister pulak.demm.
Now that we all have graduated and everyone seems to have their own route to follow, I guess I do missed my ol friends from IIUM. friends....selamat hari raya.maaf zahir dan batin yeaaaa.
seingat aku dulu time raya jarang jugak kiteorg melawat rumah masing-masing eventhough adela beberapa orang yang duduk kat kl and selangor macam emi,key,liana etc tapi maybe sebab duduk dekat dalam lagi best kiteorang lupe nak keluar kot.
aku rindu masa main mercun and bunga api time malam-malam kat riverside. masa tu terase betul suasana hari raya eventhough kadang-kadang tak ramai yang menonjolkan diri tapi at least ader jugakla sumer tu and janji bergembira.
masa kat matric aku ingat ade skali kami ramai2 pergi rumah key beraya. I think that is the first and the last one kiteorang pergi sane beraya. me and a couple of guys pergi sana balik two years ago sebab akak key kawen. lepas beraya aku ingat kiteorang spend time main2 kat taman mainan and now everytime lalu kat situ mesti senyum.
masa puasa sangat best jugak sebab selalunya buka kat hs cafe ramai-ramai and bile dah ramai-ramai maka makanan pun ramai. aku, singkong, sarip selalu amek kat masjid and bawak ke hs so eventhough save duit and kadang2 amek lebih dari yang patutu(3 bungkus at one go) bila pikir balik sekarang seronok betul time tu.
during my days in IIUM, selalunya aku tak sabar2 nak balik semule ke uia lepas raya sebab nak sambung bergembira balik denga member2. rindu betul....haiihhh.
I know this might sound cliche but I really,really hope that i can experience those things again. nak sangat spend time ngan sume bebudak again.
to my ever loving friends back in JB,Masqueradians, Benians, Liburs, IIuM theatre enthusiasts, seniors,juniors, my IIC students, my friends at Restu Foundations,bloggers..I wish you selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
maaf zahir dan batin....especially batin!!!!!!
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
minggu lepas saya demam....teruk
last weekend was pretty awful to me. malam khamis bila ramai umat Islam bergombol-gombol pergi masjid buat terawih mengejar lailatul qadar, aku terbaring kat atas sofa living room dengan kepala yang rasa macam tak berapa sihat. dalam hati terdetik jugak perasaan nak demam sebab bukan jek kepala tapi seluruh badan dah mula meragam...dan sejam dua lepas tu memang betul aku demam...demam panas pulak tu...haihhh.
jadi esok hari jumaat aku mintak excuse tak mengajar dan lepak rumah jugak sebab demam makin teruk.menggigil badan pastu urat dalam jasad rasa macam menari-nari sekejap tegang sekejap kendur. satu hari jumaat tu aku tak bangun dari katil sebab tak larat termasuklah missed semayang jumaat. tapi aku agak kentalla..or mungkin bodo sebab tamau pergi klinik. aku memang tak suka pergi klinik sebab kononnya takmau reliable sangat dengan ubat. aku bukan benci makan ubat tapi agak tak berkenan dengan ubat. dalam pengalaman aku dah jumpa ramai orang salah guna ubat ataupun tertalu dependable kat ubat tu.stress sket amek anti depressan pills, etc. tak sukala.
pastu hari sabtu pun demam jugak.sama jek. terbaring atas katil. hari jumaat tu aku pose tapi tak bebuka sangat.bebuka dengan makan jambu jek. hari sabtu pose and joe belikan aku bubur ayam mcd. bolehla. hari ahad kurang sket tapi still terase sakit dia. tabahkan hati gak pose dan bebuka dekat OM. lama tak makan situ.seronokla jugak walaupun badan meragam terus.
aku ni mmg susah sangat nak demam or sakit tapi bila dah kena memang teruk.dalam kes demam sampai meracau jugakla. dulu kalau dekat rumah tiap kali demam mama ngan abah yang jaga sebab dieorg tau aku demam mesti merepek punya tapi bila dah duduk bujang ni rasa sedeh sangat sampai nak menangis sebab takde orang nak jage. bebudak lain plak pegi kerja so sorang2la mengerang. menitis air mata aku.hehehe.
sebab family members tau aku ni kalo demam teruk, dieorang agaknya pakat2 tipon aku sejam sekali tanye kabar. terharu jugakla tapi tetap rase lain sebab kalau dulu ada mama letakkan kain basah kat kepala and lapkan badan. ada abah tolong minumkan aku.ada abang tolong belikan panadol etc tapi skarang dah takde.
bila aku kena macam ni sebenarnya bagus.sebab apa? dia jadi pengajaran aku tentang hidup. sakit tu hanya sekelumit dari rasa keseluruhan maut dan bila kita sakit kita mesti ingat maut. aku tak takut mati tapi aku nak hidup sebab aku tau dengan apa yang aku ada memang aku tak layak masuk syurga. sakit kan ajar kita jadi insaf tapi insaf tu susah kan?
bila sakit, aku memang terbayang maut.sebab apa?sebab sangat-sangat sakit. dalam otak aku dah karang beberapa ucapan yang aku nak cakap kalau ajal tu datang lawat aku. macam wasiatla tapi sebab takde harta, aku bole bagi kata-kata je lah. ada untuk beberapa orag yang bermakna dalam hidup aku. dalam otak keluar sunset aku. bermakna betul.
batuk makin teruk. walau aku dah makan ubat batuk cap ibu dan anak tapi tetap makin teruk.mungkin kena jumpa doktor jugak di klinik.haihhh...
yaa rokok dah 2 minggu aku tak isap. mungkin sebab sakit demam dan batuk membantu jadi memang semua perkara yang jadi memang ada hikmah. hoyeaaah!!!!goood.
jadi esok hari jumaat aku mintak excuse tak mengajar dan lepak rumah jugak sebab demam makin teruk.menggigil badan pastu urat dalam jasad rasa macam menari-nari sekejap tegang sekejap kendur. satu hari jumaat tu aku tak bangun dari katil sebab tak larat termasuklah missed semayang jumaat. tapi aku agak kentalla..or mungkin bodo sebab tamau pergi klinik. aku memang tak suka pergi klinik sebab kononnya takmau reliable sangat dengan ubat. aku bukan benci makan ubat tapi agak tak berkenan dengan ubat. dalam pengalaman aku dah jumpa ramai orang salah guna ubat ataupun tertalu dependable kat ubat tu.stress sket amek anti depressan pills, etc. tak sukala.
pastu hari sabtu pun demam jugak.sama jek. terbaring atas katil. hari jumaat tu aku pose tapi tak bebuka sangat.bebuka dengan makan jambu jek. hari sabtu pose and joe belikan aku bubur ayam mcd. bolehla. hari ahad kurang sket tapi still terase sakit dia. tabahkan hati gak pose dan bebuka dekat OM. lama tak makan situ.seronokla jugak walaupun badan meragam terus.
aku ni mmg susah sangat nak demam or sakit tapi bila dah kena memang teruk.dalam kes demam sampai meracau jugakla. dulu kalau dekat rumah tiap kali demam mama ngan abah yang jaga sebab dieorg tau aku demam mesti merepek punya tapi bila dah duduk bujang ni rasa sedeh sangat sampai nak menangis sebab takde orang nak jage. bebudak lain plak pegi kerja so sorang2la mengerang. menitis air mata aku.hehehe.
sebab family members tau aku ni kalo demam teruk, dieorang agaknya pakat2 tipon aku sejam sekali tanye kabar. terharu jugakla tapi tetap rase lain sebab kalau dulu ada mama letakkan kain basah kat kepala and lapkan badan. ada abah tolong minumkan aku.ada abang tolong belikan panadol etc tapi skarang dah takde.
bila aku kena macam ni sebenarnya bagus.sebab apa? dia jadi pengajaran aku tentang hidup. sakit tu hanya sekelumit dari rasa keseluruhan maut dan bila kita sakit kita mesti ingat maut. aku tak takut mati tapi aku nak hidup sebab aku tau dengan apa yang aku ada memang aku tak layak masuk syurga. sakit kan ajar kita jadi insaf tapi insaf tu susah kan?
bila sakit, aku memang terbayang maut.sebab apa?sebab sangat-sangat sakit. dalam otak aku dah karang beberapa ucapan yang aku nak cakap kalau ajal tu datang lawat aku. macam wasiatla tapi sebab takde harta, aku bole bagi kata-kata je lah. ada untuk beberapa orag yang bermakna dalam hidup aku. dalam otak keluar sunset aku. bermakna betul.
batuk makin teruk. walau aku dah makan ubat batuk cap ibu dan anak tapi tetap makin teruk.mungkin kena jumpa doktor jugak di klinik.haihhh...
yaa rokok dah 2 minggu aku tak isap. mungkin sebab sakit demam dan batuk membantu jadi memang semua perkara yang jadi memang ada hikmah. hoyeaaah!!!!goood.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
History
I'm doing a research on the history of China and the history of Islam in China now. I went to my uncle's house last night and we discussed about his passion/business of collecting old manuscripts and Islamic based artifacts. He told me he just bought this one old manuscript (probably around 700 years of age) that was written way back during the early period of the coming of Islam in China. the book was apperently written by someone who only want to be known as the 'slave of Allah' and the book comes with 2 volumes.
we, then talked about brief history of Islam in China and some of the reasons why he is so passionate about collecting artifacts and old manuscripts. well, of all the reasons he gave me I think the best reason that managed to capture my heart was that collecting those things can give you hell lots of money. artifact of probably 300-500 years of age can get you more than 50 million USd if it is being sold to another private collector or museum. phewwww. nonetheless, i think the main reason for that sort of passion is simply because the value that people can garnered from the sense of appreciation in them towards those things. went back home at about 1.30 am with all the thinking of that interesting topic (excluding duit berjuta tu lakan).
my passion is theatre and I love theatre to the core of my bones...that's what I think of my passion:)
on the other hand, batuk tak baik2la pulak. mama cakap bahaya bole bawak ke T.B. takut jugak. sangatla malas nak makan ubat batuk dan sememangnya aku tak suka makan ubat. tapi kalo bole bawak tb lagi takut. dah beli ubat batuk cap ibu dan anak 2 hari lepas tapi tak makan jugak.haiiiiihhhh...
rokok kurang jugakla. stabil pengambilannya. sekarang sehari isap 2 batang tapi kadang2 3 batang jugak. mostly 2 batangla. the real challenge is bila ramadhan dah tamat. bila aku dah bole isap rokok suke ati aku. tapi macam manapun aku agak optimistikla dengan journey aku nak kurang kan merokok and maybe terus quit.hehehedede. insyallah:)
A Bummer
well, that's a bummer.
Happy Malaysia's Day people of Malaysia.
unfortunately for me and maybe fortunate for some of us outside, we, after all the commotions, cannot witness the transition of government that Dato Sri Anwar had promised us before. personally, that's a darn bummer there. well, I don't blame him though simply because he, at least tried to do something to Malaysia. to bring the much awaited reforms of course and at least he banged our silly little Malaysian head that something big like that perhaps can occur if only we have the determination and spirit for it and it is noble of him to have a dream like that.
we, who are about to die...salute You.
now that we all know the end of that chapter, perhaps we can now start with lessening the gap between races or perhaps, at least, talk less of politics. I think it is about time for us. Malaysians to embrace the new dawn of the new Malaysia.
No superiority of a particular race
No more race based political organization
No more bickering among the rights of a particular race
No more any act of disrespect towards religion (and this include those who think freedom of voice is unlimited)
No more antics to grab the attention or support of any particular race for the sake of their political survival
no more racist chanting
I am a Malay and proud of it but that doesn't mean I am better than my chinese,indians,iban's friends. my blood is as red as them and for that, we are brothers.
maybe now is the right time to smile and finally say we are truly Malaysians.
as what Diana had said before, we all go to Giants together, share the same food, the same road and the same sun and moon aite??? there's no reason for us to hate each other. it is time to give back to our beloved mother nation and stroll towards the future in style.....I think this is exactly what all malaysians want. it is now about whether Anwar should become The prime minister, not about whether Barisan Nasional should go to hell or not...I think the truth is we all want our Malaysia back and we want it now so dear leaders, can you guys give Malaysia back to us now????
Happy Malaysia's Day people of Malaysia.
unfortunately for me and maybe fortunate for some of us outside, we, after all the commotions, cannot witness the transition of government that Dato Sri Anwar had promised us before. personally, that's a darn bummer there. well, I don't blame him though simply because he, at least tried to do something to Malaysia. to bring the much awaited reforms of course and at least he banged our silly little Malaysian head that something big like that perhaps can occur if only we have the determination and spirit for it and it is noble of him to have a dream like that.
we, who are about to die...salute You.
now that we all know the end of that chapter, perhaps we can now start with lessening the gap between races or perhaps, at least, talk less of politics. I think it is about time for us. Malaysians to embrace the new dawn of the new Malaysia.
No superiority of a particular race
No more race based political organization
No more bickering among the rights of a particular race
No more any act of disrespect towards religion (and this include those who think freedom of voice is unlimited)
No more antics to grab the attention or support of any particular race for the sake of their political survival
no more racist chanting
I am a Malay and proud of it but that doesn't mean I am better than my chinese,indians,iban's friends. my blood is as red as them and for that, we are brothers.
maybe now is the right time to smile and finally say we are truly Malaysians.
as what Diana had said before, we all go to Giants together, share the same food, the same road and the same sun and moon aite??? there's no reason for us to hate each other. it is time to give back to our beloved mother nation and stroll towards the future in style.....I think this is exactly what all malaysians want. it is now about whether Anwar should become The prime minister, not about whether Barisan Nasional should go to hell or not...I think the truth is we all want our Malaysia back and we want it now so dear leaders, can you guys give Malaysia back to us now????
Monday, September 15, 2008
little incident.
a mother of one of my students came and see me today...hehehe. I thought I had done something wrong to her daughter (physically or mentally) and thought that she wanted to slap me or something but none happen except that she's asking me to look for her daughter who apparently went AWOL on the eve of her grandfather's death. to put the icing on the cake, she also failed to answer her calls (from her family), not in her rent house and also failed to show up in my class....well for not attending my class is actually not that bad though...biasalah kan jadi student( i'm trying to understand the life of students...blehehhe) nonetheless, I promise the mom wholeheartedly that I will help her and try to talk sense into this student's brain so maybe she can stop doing the thing that she's doing currently and get straight back.
don't really know whether it can happen or not but a promise is a promise right and though I consider myself as someone yang tak senonoh jugak, I will, however try my luck and stretch it to limit.
so this little incident is I guess just a chapter of my life as a lecturer. the truth is i kind of feel lucky because the mom picked me to talk to her daughter instead of the rest of her lecturers. somehow, by using her intricate sense or aura of a mother, she picked me...and that shows that...huhuhuhuhaaaaahhhahaa.
on the other hands, pernah tak korang terjatuh cinta dengan kawan merangkap kawan baik merangkap kawan lama merangkap tunang orang...hahahahaha????weird right. we'll talk about it next time.
don't really know whether it can happen or not but a promise is a promise right and though I consider myself as someone yang tak senonoh jugak, I will, however try my luck and stretch it to limit.
so this little incident is I guess just a chapter of my life as a lecturer. the truth is i kind of feel lucky because the mom picked me to talk to her daughter instead of the rest of her lecturers. somehow, by using her intricate sense or aura of a mother, she picked me...and that shows that...huhuhuhuhaaaaahhhahaa.
on the other hands, pernah tak korang terjatuh cinta dengan kawan merangkap kawan baik merangkap kawan lama merangkap tunang orang...hahahahaha????weird right. we'll talk about it next time.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
report
Quick report on my journey to quit smoking....
I think the journey is moving smoothly. my behavior is still the same without any symptoms of becoming into a mad man (tak panas baran, tak bermuram durja, tak menggigil dan tak berhalusinasi).
I only took my emergency cigarette occasionally and even if I did take one, I only sip it half like 4 to 5 sipping then I threw it away. I missed my monthol....
Ramadhan is truly a blessing to me since I can double my effort but on the other hand my concern is after Ramadhan where I will find out that I can smoke whenever I want.
I really think I can do it though. not to entirely stop but at least I can take less cigarettes than my usual dose. I'm positive. mind over body...that's it:)
I think the journey is moving smoothly. my behavior is still the same without any symptoms of becoming into a mad man (tak panas baran, tak bermuram durja, tak menggigil dan tak berhalusinasi).
I only took my emergency cigarette occasionally and even if I did take one, I only sip it half like 4 to 5 sipping then I threw it away. I missed my monthol....
Ramadhan is truly a blessing to me since I can double my effort but on the other hand my concern is after Ramadhan where I will find out that I can smoke whenever I want.
I really think I can do it though. not to entirely stop but at least I can take less cigarettes than my usual dose. I'm positive. mind over body...that's it:)
Malaysia Darul Rasis
sekarang rasa menyampah bila tiap kali membelek surat khabar mahupun menonton siaran berita pukul lapan di tv3. pertama-tamanya kerana hati yang sudah amat maklum tentang ketidak adilan didalam laporan berita itu sendiri sekiranya aku mengambil berat mengenai isu politik yang menerjah tanah air sekarang. pendapat aku terhadap lapangan kewartawanan di Malaysia ini hanyalah sampah sahaja. walaupun mungkin ada terlalu ramai insan bergelar wartawan yang berwibawa di malaysia ini tapi aku tetap rasa terlalu picisan. semua laporan tidak mencapai tahap yang boleh membentuk masyarakat madani yang glokal.
kepada wartawan atau sesiapa yang bersimpati dengan wartawan, aku mintak maaf sebab mengungkapkan bahasa biadap ini tetapi sebagai pembaca itu hak aku yang hakiki dan pendapat aku adalah refleksi kepada minda terbuka era ini. pendapat itu sememangnya ikhlas tanpa berlandaskan unsur-unsur luar.
keduanya, aku terasa menyampah di perut dan hati bila sekarang isu-isu yang sangat bahaya di perdendangkan dengan amat rancak sekali seperti isu Ahmad Said dan kenyataannya, isu Anwar dan 16 Septembernya, isu jenayah yang semakin memukau dan isu-isu lain yang menjengkelkan. secara ikhlasnya, aku sudah cukup muak dengan itu semua.
dalam isu Ahmad Said aku agak menyalahkannya tetapi tidak secara keseluruhan.sememangnya dia harus bertanggungjawab dengan kenyataan rasis nya tetapi adalah haknya untuk tidak memohon maaf. dia orang UMNO dan UMNO itu sememangnya Rasist. jadi seorang yang rasist sememangnya akan bertindak sedemikian. bila dia bertindak demikian adalah bodoh untuk kita menyalak menyuruhnya mengubah kenyataan sedemikian kerana ianya seperti menyalak kepada bukit saja. lagipun, jikalau mengeikut dari sudut sejarah sememangnya kenyataannya benar. cuma ada yang terlalu sensitif sehingga terlebih memberi reaksi.
dalam isu seterunya iaitu koh tsu koon, asasnya bukanlah kerana hendak mempertahankan kaum cina sangat. bagi aku dia hanya bermain api dengan isu itu untuk mengaut simpati sisa-sisa sokongan rakyat Malaysia berbangsa cina terutamanya yang menjadi rakyat Pulau Pinang terhadap parti kelolaannya Gerakan itu. Gerakan sebenarnya hampir terkubur(atau mungkin sudah???) dan bagi dia untuk keluar BN merupakan satu polemik bodoh saja. cuma menyalak bagi memberitahu Gerakan masih relevan. dan paling aku benci sekali ialah setelah bertahun-tahun bergerak persisi parti rasist untuk orang cina, tetiba Gerakan mahu keluar dari kepompong itu dan mengiystiharkan dirinya parti untuk seluruh kaum. aku tahu asalnya memang untuk seluruh kaum tetapi itu sejartah sahaja. kenyataannya Gerakan sama saja seperti UMNO,MCA,MIC, DAP yang rasis. kes Gerakan sama saja seperti DAP. kononnya untuk seluruh kaum tetapi rasis sahaja.cuma aku meletakkan kepercayaan aku pada Lee Guan Eng saja kerana Guan Eng lebih memahami konsep bangsa Malaysia berbanding ayahnya sendiri yang labih rasis sama saja seperti Ahmad Said itu snediri.
Aku benci sekarang kerana isu-isu seperti ini dipermainkan seolah-olah ia tidak akan melibatkan seluruh rakyat. aku yakin bila sesuatu yang buruk terjadi, tiada satupun ketua diatas itu akan bertanggungjawab. yang teruk rakyat berbilang kaumlah. aku faham perkara ini terjadi kerana ianya harus terjadi. Malaysia sebuah negara yang masih muda dan baginya untuk matang isu-isu seperti ini sememangnya harus kita tempuhi. tapi tolonglah jangan melihat sesuatu perkara itu dari mata bangsa sendiri saja.
tiada apa yang orang Melayu harus takut sekiranya orang Melayu tetap dengan pendirian dan terus berjuang memartabatkan bangsa.maksudnya memajukan diri dari segala segi bukan menghalau jiran2 berbangasa lain keluar dari tanah bangsa. kalau kita berjuang, biarpun lambat tapi lambat launkan tetap akan berjaya? daripada bermusuh lebih baik kita bekerjasama macam kaum Islam mekah bekerjasama dengan kaum Islam Madinah dan kaum yahudi dan kristian madinah bila negar islam madinah dibangunkan Nabi S.A.W. tanah ini tetap tanah orang Melayu tetapi sedarlah jiran kita yang berbangsa cina dan india itu semua telah menjadi rakan,jiran dan sebahagian dari kita juga. jadi dakaplah mereka seperti saudara saja.
bagi yang berbangsa cina india ataupun bukan bumiputera, janganlah terlalu gelojoh memperjuangkan hak asasi mereka. kadang-kadang sifat gelojoh itu nampak seperti berniat jahat dan menakutkan orang melayu. itu yang meremehkan proses menjadikan kita bangsa Malaysia. kadang-kadang bila kita terlalu menekan orang akan jemu dan tuduhan seseorang itu rasis (ahmad said) bila ditekan dengan terlalu gelojoh nampak seperti anda menuduh semua orang melayu rasis. berlembutlah kerana orang melayu sukakan approach yang lemah lembut dan berbudi bahasa. bak kata orang tua-tua tak kira bangsa; kan lebih baik kalau mulakan dengan rasa hormat setiap terhadap sesama insan.
apa yang aku harap cuma satu.semoga isu ini tidak terbawa-bawa dan emosi mempengaruhi akal. aku memang tak mengharapkan pemimpin atasan kita mampu mengubah hala tuju kes ini selain disenyapkan saja. kenapa?mudah.kerana mereka semua datang dari orang2 rasis(UMNO,MIC,Mca, Gerakan) dan mereka takkan berubah. aku senang saja, selagi mereka ada, selagi tiulah rakyat Malaysia tak mampu keluar dari lubuk perkauman. dan mungkin selagi Dap tidak sedar yang dasar mereka juga agak rasis selagi tiulah kita tidak kemana. jadi pada Dap, Guan Eng mungkin boleh tolong.
Ingatlah Malaysia bukan ber darulkan rasis.
kepada wartawan atau sesiapa yang bersimpati dengan wartawan, aku mintak maaf sebab mengungkapkan bahasa biadap ini tetapi sebagai pembaca itu hak aku yang hakiki dan pendapat aku adalah refleksi kepada minda terbuka era ini. pendapat itu sememangnya ikhlas tanpa berlandaskan unsur-unsur luar.
keduanya, aku terasa menyampah di perut dan hati bila sekarang isu-isu yang sangat bahaya di perdendangkan dengan amat rancak sekali seperti isu Ahmad Said dan kenyataannya, isu Anwar dan 16 Septembernya, isu jenayah yang semakin memukau dan isu-isu lain yang menjengkelkan. secara ikhlasnya, aku sudah cukup muak dengan itu semua.
dalam isu Ahmad Said aku agak menyalahkannya tetapi tidak secara keseluruhan.sememangnya dia harus bertanggungjawab dengan kenyataan rasis nya tetapi adalah haknya untuk tidak memohon maaf. dia orang UMNO dan UMNO itu sememangnya Rasist. jadi seorang yang rasist sememangnya akan bertindak sedemikian. bila dia bertindak demikian adalah bodoh untuk kita menyalak menyuruhnya mengubah kenyataan sedemikian kerana ianya seperti menyalak kepada bukit saja. lagipun, jikalau mengeikut dari sudut sejarah sememangnya kenyataannya benar. cuma ada yang terlalu sensitif sehingga terlebih memberi reaksi.
dalam isu seterunya iaitu koh tsu koon, asasnya bukanlah kerana hendak mempertahankan kaum cina sangat. bagi aku dia hanya bermain api dengan isu itu untuk mengaut simpati sisa-sisa sokongan rakyat Malaysia berbangsa cina terutamanya yang menjadi rakyat Pulau Pinang terhadap parti kelolaannya Gerakan itu. Gerakan sebenarnya hampir terkubur(atau mungkin sudah???) dan bagi dia untuk keluar BN merupakan satu polemik bodoh saja. cuma menyalak bagi memberitahu Gerakan masih relevan. dan paling aku benci sekali ialah setelah bertahun-tahun bergerak persisi parti rasist untuk orang cina, tetiba Gerakan mahu keluar dari kepompong itu dan mengiystiharkan dirinya parti untuk seluruh kaum. aku tahu asalnya memang untuk seluruh kaum tetapi itu sejartah sahaja. kenyataannya Gerakan sama saja seperti UMNO,MCA,MIC, DAP yang rasis. kes Gerakan sama saja seperti DAP. kononnya untuk seluruh kaum tetapi rasis sahaja.cuma aku meletakkan kepercayaan aku pada Lee Guan Eng saja kerana Guan Eng lebih memahami konsep bangsa Malaysia berbanding ayahnya sendiri yang labih rasis sama saja seperti Ahmad Said itu snediri.
Aku benci sekarang kerana isu-isu seperti ini dipermainkan seolah-olah ia tidak akan melibatkan seluruh rakyat. aku yakin bila sesuatu yang buruk terjadi, tiada satupun ketua diatas itu akan bertanggungjawab. yang teruk rakyat berbilang kaumlah. aku faham perkara ini terjadi kerana ianya harus terjadi. Malaysia sebuah negara yang masih muda dan baginya untuk matang isu-isu seperti ini sememangnya harus kita tempuhi. tapi tolonglah jangan melihat sesuatu perkara itu dari mata bangsa sendiri saja.
tiada apa yang orang Melayu harus takut sekiranya orang Melayu tetap dengan pendirian dan terus berjuang memartabatkan bangsa.maksudnya memajukan diri dari segala segi bukan menghalau jiran2 berbangasa lain keluar dari tanah bangsa. kalau kita berjuang, biarpun lambat tapi lambat launkan tetap akan berjaya? daripada bermusuh lebih baik kita bekerjasama macam kaum Islam mekah bekerjasama dengan kaum Islam Madinah dan kaum yahudi dan kristian madinah bila negar islam madinah dibangunkan Nabi S.A.W. tanah ini tetap tanah orang Melayu tetapi sedarlah jiran kita yang berbangsa cina dan india itu semua telah menjadi rakan,jiran dan sebahagian dari kita juga. jadi dakaplah mereka seperti saudara saja.
bagi yang berbangsa cina india ataupun bukan bumiputera, janganlah terlalu gelojoh memperjuangkan hak asasi mereka. kadang-kadang sifat gelojoh itu nampak seperti berniat jahat dan menakutkan orang melayu. itu yang meremehkan proses menjadikan kita bangsa Malaysia. kadang-kadang bila kita terlalu menekan orang akan jemu dan tuduhan seseorang itu rasis (ahmad said) bila ditekan dengan terlalu gelojoh nampak seperti anda menuduh semua orang melayu rasis. berlembutlah kerana orang melayu sukakan approach yang lemah lembut dan berbudi bahasa. bak kata orang tua-tua tak kira bangsa; kan lebih baik kalau mulakan dengan rasa hormat setiap terhadap sesama insan.
apa yang aku harap cuma satu.semoga isu ini tidak terbawa-bawa dan emosi mempengaruhi akal. aku memang tak mengharapkan pemimpin atasan kita mampu mengubah hala tuju kes ini selain disenyapkan saja. kenapa?mudah.kerana mereka semua datang dari orang2 rasis(UMNO,MIC,Mca, Gerakan) dan mereka takkan berubah. aku senang saja, selagi mereka ada, selagi tiulah rakyat Malaysia tak mampu keluar dari lubuk perkauman. dan mungkin selagi Dap tidak sedar yang dasar mereka juga agak rasis selagi tiulah kita tidak kemana. jadi pada Dap, Guan Eng mungkin boleh tolong.
Ingatlah Malaysia bukan ber darulkan rasis.
Saturday, September 06, 2008
I would like to stop smoking.
dear self and friends...
as per now I am embarking on a journey to quit smoking.
the objective is to quit smoking or to stop myself from behaving like a jerk when I am facing with the tendency to smoke.
the reason behind this journey is because I had once promise to myself that when the time is right I would definitely stop taking cigarettes. I don't know whether this is the right time or not but I guess I have the urge to do so, and for that I would like to try.
and plus, in this life we often heard the case of a smoker quitting the cigarette because his girlfriend or boyfriend asked them to quit aite?? I think those who do so are yanks or fluffing dick! I think we should do so because we like to do so.it should come straight from our heart. nonetheless I still think their act of quitting is such a noble act and should at the least be applaud of. to quit is not an easy thing to do okay people.
I am thus not promising anything in term of the outcome of this journey. I try my best to quit and I will do anything to manhandling myself from puffing that thing. however to be fair to my self and be realistic to the nature, I will smoke occasionally just to keep myself sane and sound. therefore if you see me smoking, I beg for your apology and please understand my part.
I pray that this journey be a successful one and insyaallah I can quit smoking at the of it. please pray for my journey.
as per now I am embarking on a journey to quit smoking.
the objective is to quit smoking or to stop myself from behaving like a jerk when I am facing with the tendency to smoke.
the reason behind this journey is because I had once promise to myself that when the time is right I would definitely stop taking cigarettes. I don't know whether this is the right time or not but I guess I have the urge to do so, and for that I would like to try.
and plus, in this life we often heard the case of a smoker quitting the cigarette because his girlfriend or boyfriend asked them to quit aite?? I think those who do so are yanks or fluffing dick! I think we should do so because we like to do so.it should come straight from our heart. nonetheless I still think their act of quitting is such a noble act and should at the least be applaud of. to quit is not an easy thing to do okay people.
I am thus not promising anything in term of the outcome of this journey. I try my best to quit and I will do anything to manhandling myself from puffing that thing. however to be fair to my self and be realistic to the nature, I will smoke occasionally just to keep myself sane and sound. therefore if you see me smoking, I beg for your apology and please understand my part.
I pray that this journey be a successful one and insyaallah I can quit smoking at the of it. please pray for my journey.
24 years of awesomeness
welcome back September 6th!!!Yeaaaayyyyy.........haiiiihhhh.
I'm officially 24 as per today and though I still feel the same like yesterday(awesome) I do feel the urge of wanting to celebrate it to the maximum.
hehehe...craps! sepanjang 24 tahun aku idup kat dunia ni mane pernahnye aku celebrate hari jadi.
I think it all comes back to the fact of my life..hmmm i think fact number 204 kot which is I don't celebrate birthdays. aku datang dari keluarga yang rapat tapi tak berapa biase celebrate birthday. kiteorang tak ingat birthday masing2 and tak wish birthday masing2..macho sangat kot???tapi kiteorg still rapatla. I guess we like to do stuffs yang tak perlu set kan each year kot because occasionally we love to buat makan besar satu family so rasenyer tu lagi best.
well, I thank god because I got to be at the place I wanted to be which is my home(pasir Gudang) on the eve of my birthday with my family. and then because He gave me 24 years of wonderfulness fo me to appreciate and live it to the fullest and for giving me all the wonderful people(friends,family etc) yang aku kenal dari mula2 aku kenal manusia sampai sekarang.and of course for giving me the brain and the heart I cherished most....and paling penting for giving me the light of Islam mase aku lahir dulu. I guess that was the most cherishing birhtday present I could ask for from Him.
I say a gazillion thanks to all yang wish me a very good birthday wish and truly I love you lots. pemenang utk tahun ni is Lizzie for being the first caller..congrats!!!!
my wish for this year is to work hard for my future, to quit smoking, to be a good son and most important wish for this year is to pray more and to be a good slave to HIM. AMin.
I'm officially 24 as per today and though I still feel the same like yesterday(awesome) I do feel the urge of wanting to celebrate it to the maximum.
hehehe...craps! sepanjang 24 tahun aku idup kat dunia ni mane pernahnye aku celebrate hari jadi.
I think it all comes back to the fact of my life..hmmm i think fact number 204 kot which is I don't celebrate birthdays. aku datang dari keluarga yang rapat tapi tak berapa biase celebrate birthday. kiteorang tak ingat birthday masing2 and tak wish birthday masing2..macho sangat kot???tapi kiteorg still rapatla. I guess we like to do stuffs yang tak perlu set kan each year kot because occasionally we love to buat makan besar satu family so rasenyer tu lagi best.
well, I thank god because I got to be at the place I wanted to be which is my home(pasir Gudang) on the eve of my birthday with my family. and then because He gave me 24 years of wonderfulness fo me to appreciate and live it to the fullest and for giving me all the wonderful people(friends,family etc) yang aku kenal dari mula2 aku kenal manusia sampai sekarang.and of course for giving me the brain and the heart I cherished most....and paling penting for giving me the light of Islam mase aku lahir dulu. I guess that was the most cherishing birhtday present I could ask for from Him.
I say a gazillion thanks to all yang wish me a very good birthday wish and truly I love you lots. pemenang utk tahun ni is Lizzie for being the first caller..congrats!!!!
my wish for this year is to work hard for my future, to quit smoking, to be a good son and most important wish for this year is to pray more and to be a good slave to HIM. AMin.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Rumah
rumah dah jadi hebat!!!
dah masuk astro.
peti ais dah penuh macam rumah orang dah kawin dengan 5 anak
ade microwave
ade peti ais
ade waffle and toaster machine
ade blender
ade tempat masak nasi
ade dapur
ade oven
tadi astro dah masuk.
bilik dah kemas
lepas ni nak cat.
untuk persediaan nak raya.
joe nak buat kuih raya.
hahahaha..jakunnye!!!
dah masuk astro.
peti ais dah penuh macam rumah orang dah kawin dengan 5 anak
ade microwave
ade peti ais
ade waffle and toaster machine
ade blender
ade tempat masak nasi
ade dapur
ade oven
tadi astro dah masuk.
bilik dah kemas
lepas ni nak cat.
untuk persediaan nak raya.
joe nak buat kuih raya.
hahahaha..jakunnye!!!
Ramadhan
Ramadhan datang lagi....
tahun ni merupakan tahun perrtama aku sambut ramadhan sebagai seorang bujang yang duduk di perantauan. yeaaaa....sebelum ni hidup sebagai student lainlah sebab secara dasarnya aku masih terletak dibawah tanggungjawab mak bapak. tapi ni dah bekerja baru la aku dapat tahu macam mana plak rasanya hidup berpuasa kat perantauan.
berita baik ialah aku dah biasa sebab dah 5 tahun lebih duduk jauh dari keluarga.so, takla terasa sangat. berita buruk ialah walaupun ada cuti tapi still tak dapat bali rumah sambut puasa pertama dengan keluarga. pheeeewwwwwwwwww...
lagi 28 hari nak raya..yeyeeeyyy!!!!
kepada semua kawan-kawan, orang-orang Islam dan bukan Islam...selamat menyambut Bulan Ramadhan al-Mubarak.
tahun ni merupakan tahun perrtama aku sambut ramadhan sebagai seorang bujang yang duduk di perantauan. yeaaaa....sebelum ni hidup sebagai student lainlah sebab secara dasarnya aku masih terletak dibawah tanggungjawab mak bapak. tapi ni dah bekerja baru la aku dapat tahu macam mana plak rasanya hidup berpuasa kat perantauan.
berita baik ialah aku dah biasa sebab dah 5 tahun lebih duduk jauh dari keluarga.so, takla terasa sangat. berita buruk ialah walaupun ada cuti tapi still tak dapat bali rumah sambut puasa pertama dengan keluarga. pheeeewwwwwwwwww...
lagi 28 hari nak raya..yeyeeeyyy!!!!
kepada semua kawan-kawan, orang-orang Islam dan bukan Islam...selamat menyambut Bulan Ramadhan al-Mubarak.
the beginning of a saga
It's been a while since I have time to write something on my blog. I, sometimes find it hard to compensate everything that I have left before and the thought of reschedule everything seems pretty bizarre right now. ironically, time is not my nemesis now and all I can say is that time, indeed a thing that I have the most. perhaps..it just me:)
where should I begin....
I finally have the time to write something about my much awaited convocation last 25th August 2008. the schedule was hectic and I remember everyone was flat to dead after it was gladly and officially ended.
I got the suit and my appearence was exactly the way I had imagined before...black suit,black shirt,black mafioso leather shoes and thick blue neck tie..damn I looked great.hohohoho!!!
I went to IIU with my parents and my big bro from Putrajaya. Arrived somewhere at around 7.45am. take a few pictures with mama and abah and went straight to CaC. met all the dorks and jerks of BEnl like emi,nik,joe,chief,key,bob and the rest. had a great time making fun out of everyone and basically bergembira and then we were oredered to get into the hall.
I think we were the loudest, noisiest, no-disciplined attitute bunch of people in the hall since we kept on blabbering and all for most of the time. each time a person we know got on stage we cheered them and yes...I got mine, myself when I stepped up and received my scroll.
the feeling was royally overwhelmed for I have been waiting for that day since the first day I went to school nearly 14 years ago.
after the ceremony I went straight to HS cafe to meet some of the BEnl friends and say hi.took pictures with kak Mei.everyone was so damn busy we hadn't had a chance to share and snap some pictures together.
met Cik Rahim and Makcik BB there and they all looked gladly fine. haven't seen them for such a long time. spent some time chatting with cik Rahim and then ran off to my family.
we went to Bangsar to buy some of literature books for Nana at Silver Fish Books. Had lunch at Sri Gombak before mama abah sent me back to my casa la royale.
then pengsan sebab penat sangat.
where should I begin....
I finally have the time to write something about my much awaited convocation last 25th August 2008. the schedule was hectic and I remember everyone was flat to dead after it was gladly and officially ended.
I got the suit and my appearence was exactly the way I had imagined before...black suit,black shirt,black mafioso leather shoes and thick blue neck tie..damn I looked great.hohohoho!!!
I went to IIU with my parents and my big bro from Putrajaya. Arrived somewhere at around 7.45am. take a few pictures with mama and abah and went straight to CaC. met all the dorks and jerks of BEnl like emi,nik,joe,chief,key,bob and the rest. had a great time making fun out of everyone and basically bergembira and then we were oredered to get into the hall.
I think we were the loudest, noisiest, no-disciplined attitute bunch of people in the hall since we kept on blabbering and all for most of the time. each time a person we know got on stage we cheered them and yes...I got mine, myself when I stepped up and received my scroll.
the feeling was royally overwhelmed for I have been waiting for that day since the first day I went to school nearly 14 years ago.
after the ceremony I went straight to HS cafe to meet some of the BEnl friends and say hi.took pictures with kak Mei.everyone was so damn busy we hadn't had a chance to share and snap some pictures together.
met Cik Rahim and Makcik BB there and they all looked gladly fine. haven't seen them for such a long time. spent some time chatting with cik Rahim and then ran off to my family.
we went to Bangsar to buy some of literature books for Nana at Silver Fish Books. Had lunch at Sri Gombak before mama abah sent me back to my casa la royale.
then pengsan sebab penat sangat.
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